The inclination

I wonder what this feeling that I feel is,

This urge to survive

I saw you for who you truly are

I wonder why I get inspiration from sadness

my ideologies have a 28-day interval

I guess that's why I identify with fluidity

I am yet to have a concrete definition on anything

sometimes I think i'm putting too much meaning into everything

it's like life has no meaning without purpose

I keep fixating on the absurdity of life

it's time for me to sing a new song

at least now that I feel inclined to

you know when they say life is what you make it

my life at the moment is just preparing for the next part

maybe the meaning is purpose

like wherever we find ourselves is the reason

The inclination

I am mostly inclined toward creativity

that's the thing I do without any thought

the need to express myself

my outlet

I wonder if that is also self-imposed

most things are psychological

most of my thoughts are philosophical

I have detached myself from my parent's problems

grown in the midst of chaos

but sometimes I just want to be cuddled

sometimes I'm just looking for affection

most times I want to be held and felt

so maybe I find comfort in art

I need to find more comfort in just being

maybe that's what being strong is

being authentic and true to yourself in every situation

going after what you want

even if wanting is a by-product of existence

most urges like joy or envy are side effects of the purple pill

there's no right way to live

nobody is perfect

I'm still hoping everything makes sense to me eventually

but now I'm actually filled with gratitude

I'm grateful for love

it's a cheat code I've found in this ultimate test

it makes living a little easier when it's genuine

it's a support system

a type of drug to cope

brb trying to focus on love, peace and growth.

Authenticity to self.